October 24, 2011
At church today, I was worshiping. Just doing the usual, semi-monotonous worship when I realized something...I was in the Presence of God! Worship is an act of surrender at Christ's feet. Not just saying some words that are scrolling on a screen; the words that I sing are the prayers that I am lifting up to my Creator. Words like: "we're giving it all away, away," "our God is an awesome God He reigns," or "my soul waits, reach out my hands before You, my Keeper, i will come running." These words are not empty, they are real. These are the things that I am asking of God; these are the things that I am saying to God; and these are the things that I am declaring to God. And, this morning, I realized that I was at His feet. I was lifting up my unworthy and no good praise to Him and He met me right there are cradled me in His huge arms. That in itself blew my mind! Then, I was again humbled. After reading an article on the safety (or lack there of) in Sudan and Haiti, I realized that for the first time in my life that these wonderful opportunities that God has opened the door for, will be the first time that I am truly putting my life in jeopardy for the benefit of my faith. However, as much as the facts scare me, I am not anxious. I know that God is good and that whatever happens to me while I am there, is exactly as He has planned. I have never felt more on track with my Creator than I do right now. The other thing that I realized today is that, even though I am scared to experience these things, the people that are living in Haiti and Sudan are living those things. It is not just a possibility that death, rape, illness, or countless other things could it is reality for them. And that is what really breaks my heart. God intended for this world to be so beautiful and perfect and yet, because of our sin, there are so many things in this world that are destroying the lives of millions - if not billions - of people. Now, more than ever, not do I just want to go to these places, I have to go. God is going to open the doors that need to be opened and close those that need to be so tightly shut. He is good and just and He will provide the way. Amen!
