Restoration

I have become another person. Someone I am not. I am not the type of girl to cry all the time out of self-pity. I am not the type to wallow in my pain. My life has always been driven by others. I want to be a nurse to help others. I want to be a missionary to save others through the grace of God. I have been living for myself. I have been in a state of depression. I have sought out my own strength. I have not been building others up. And when I spend all of my time focusing on myself and the things that I am going through, I fall apart. The past two months of my life have been void of quality time with the people in my life that matter the most. I do not have a girl friend that I can go to and build up or be built up by. I have not been doing what God has called me to be doing. I'm not sure if it is because I have been spending so much time with Noah or simply because I have been spending too much time with myself and all of my doubts. My heart is broken because of all of the opportunities I have missed to spend with others. Like John 1 says, I have been given so many blessings and one of those is the ability to encourage others. Now is the best time to get off of my sorrow horse and take time for others. God has placed me on this earth not to further myself, but to encourage others and build them up. Now, I will seek out the R-E-S-T-O-R-A-T-I-O-N!